It’s been 20 a days something quarantine for me this far. I’m honestly starting to find it very hard to keep my thoughts in a positive manner and filling my days with things to do. I feel lost sometimes,stuck, and even a little low and depressed. it goes up and down, I’m sure it’s the same for everyone. I feel sick to my stomach that we don’t know how long this is going to last and the fact that we have no security on what’s gonna happen tomorrow. when we’re gonna get our next pay cheque and putting food on the table, having a roof over our heads and not being able to leave the country and we’re stuck here for some time.
I hate not knowing and I hate not having a plan and I can’t be in control over this situation , how ever I am trying my best every day to keep my head cool and being chill. Putting my mind on other things. Trying to make a plan but it’s almost impossible when I don’t have a timeline. Sometimes it makes me feel better to keep a tidy house, being organized and having everything clean. But there’s only so much you can do in terms of cleaning and fixing things.right?! Who else is like this ?
It doesn’t change the reality. but it does make me feel better.
Maybe it’s a control thing I am obsessing over because that’s something I can control. But I can’t control how every day plans out. Trying to think that every day, it’s ok. We don’t have to be in control all the time. I was even thinking of maybe doing an online course from some of the universities here that offers free online courses🤣 maybe that’ll get my mind of things for a while and I can learn something new at the same time! win win. Anyways . Just wanted to say that and let you know that you’re not alone if you’re feeling a bit lost and stuck at the moment. I think the majority of us feels that way at these times ❤️