I know many of us are feeling the change and the impact this has had, but also if we take a step back and reflect on what has happened with us besides The corona pandemic, there has been a lot of positive changes.
I feel calmer and more centered, I know that I am more alert over what I am doing and what I value in terms of what I need to be happy and who I need around me.
I actually thought I was going to get more crazy and restless than I have been. (if you know me then you know I’m a bundle of energy and I get bored easily to say it short) but I am proud of myself for being able to cope so well .
We have to protect our peace and serenity, don’t think we have done that so much before and I don’t think we always respected our own inner peace as much as we should have.
I for one have been a crowd pleaser and I’ve always gone out of my way to deliver a presence , connections, making sure everyone else is happy and satisfied and I’ve forgotten about myself. ive literally just been used. And I’ve taking a BIG slam of having people and “friends“ using me over and over again. Taking advantage of my kindness. Thinking I am stupid. just taking and using me for things I have or have connections i can supply. wow?! I know right?! It’s sooo silly .
Because I always see the best in people, I always saw the best in people until they fuck me over and pretend they are entitled or had reason to. it’s ok. I’m used to it by now,people in this town talk a lot og talk but there is no action.
I can tell you this , I don’t regret anything, and in the end I am not the one with a heavy heart And a dirty conscious. we will all die one day and we will know the truth about everything Right?!
so my friends, when this quarantine Covid-19 pandemic is over, please think about what brings you peace and joy, and stick to that. knowing you don’t have to entertain anyone, you don’t have to do what you don’t want to do (unless it’s family and chores or work) and you don’t have to deal with people you don’t want to deal with Just “because”.. if they really need you, let them come to you instead.
Trust me, if it’s anything I’ve learned over the last year is that everyone is for themselves and no matter how much you do for them, once they get what they want they won’t give a shit about you. So keep your energy and your presence for those who deserve it. Everything else is just drainig you for you energy and you won’t get anything back from that.
put your energy where you’re wanted . That’s what I’m trying to say 😊 and you’ll see.
All the effort you put in the right places will be so much more rewarding than all those other times and thoughts you put in the wrong places. I’m telling you! Just try it!
thank me later 🥰